Motivation

I have hit a wall...I have spent the past 2 weeks not wanting to even be around the people who love me the most. I hid myself away from the world and was just doing the bare minimum in everything. I would pretend to sleep just to escape the world. I had my headphones in constantly. I spent countless hours looking in a mirror and analyzing my image. Finally, today, I woke up. I was getting ready to write the infamous quote, "Nothing tastes as good as thin feels" and stick it somewhere near food. I then realized who said that...a sad anorexic model who was probably dying for a piece of cheesecake at that exact moment. I woke up and decided to look for quotes to just make me feel better.

Sadly, the wall I had hit made me very grumpy towards some of my favorite people and I was just horrible. Now, I'm not going to say they were perfect...in fact one of them said some very hurtful things that I'm still processing and handling. It still was no excuse.

I know the Bible is chalk full with words of encouragement and wisdom but I needed inspiration from my world. In english that I could understand. Please don't think I am disregarding the Bible, because trust me, we had some quality time together tonight. The quotes I am about to share I have written on index cards in pretty sharpie and used double sided tape and put them up to decorate my wall that my desk is on...they look beautiful.

"Tears mess up your makeup" Julia Childs said this and I love it. I am someone who cries over a bad salad. Tears are necessary in certain occasions but not over stupid things. Besides, who wants to mess up their makeup.

"Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired." Mother Teresa was a beautiful woman who was made beautiful but loving. With Andrew, I sometimes expect the Mr. Darcy, Henry DeTamble, Noah, Gerry and so many more fictional dreamboats all rolled into him. Those men are fake and he is real. Loving him and him loving me is to be loving constantly and not expect great leaps and bounds but just calling and saying...hey i love you and i want you to know that.

"For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone." Audrey Hepburn is, in my eyes, one of the most beautiful women to grace the screen. I loved this quote as I am reminded pant size is not true beauty but the character inside is what counts.

"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." Eleanor Roosevelt said this and it has been used many times. I let people's words get to me and take everything personal. However, tonight Eleanor reminded me that no one can tear me down unless I let them.

"Getting angry doesn't solve anything" Grace Kelly, another gorgeous woman said this. I have a temper and can admit it. I am easily angered by certain people and the past couple of weeks has been no exception. All it causes is hurt and tears and let's face it...Mrs. Childs said that ruins our makeup.

So that is it...out of the rut and back to the grindstone...not without my girls motivating me to just be beautiful on the inside and let it shine out.